You Can't Change The World; Only Your Mind

I'm sitting alone in my bedroom as I have for many years.  Never really alone though.  Never really.  I have friends every where I look.  Real friends.  That count on me and depend on me to make good decisions.  Friends that would take the shirts off there backs if need be.  Really. 

I've passionately fought against relying on men for work my whole life.  Trying my hardest to stay self-reliant no matter what.  I've worked my factory jobs.  3 years at CF Gomma under a phony whipped and broken version of a Union.  I'm sure a lot of the Union workers know what I'm talking about.  Right before they shipped our jobs to Poland and Florida.  Jeez... Don't get me started on all that realness!!!  My nerves are Fucking Shot Ya'll!!!  For real. 

There's a reason for that.  A real life reason.  See after realizing that there's absolutely no reasonable working wage out there for somebody like me.  A High School "Drop-Out" or however you'd put it.  I decided to play poker.  Poker on the Internet even.  Like literally thousands of Americans.  My simple reasoning went like this.... Hmmm.  I like games.  I have to make money.  There's no opportunity....  Poker is fun!!!!  

So.  I played... I payed taxes.  I made very little money.  But I won.  And I grinded along.  Now make no mistake, poker is a SKILLBASED game.  If I have to call my star witness...  Code name:  00Sanchez to verify this.  He will do that.  Them's is jokes of course.  But all joking aside... I'm positive about it.  I got probably like 30000 games that would prove it.  Do the math my friends.  You don't just get lucky all the time in the long run.  Phuy!

Anyways.  Let's just say this whole poker thing.  It really affects some of us.  It's a Game.  Of Skill.  Where people voluntarily play each other for their own money.  Compare that to a game of luck where people scrape some sort of gray shit off a piece of cardboard to match lemons or some shit... for like 10 bones a pop.   "I mean the nerve."

I was proud of it.  I still am.  Politically... I'm for *** ****.  I believe that I should be protected from the infringement of the powers that be on my personal choice.  On the way of life that I choose to pursue.  Every other "free society" in the world can log on to their computers and play a game of cards.  And here we are.  The freeeeessstt and I can't play poker. 

Hell... I don't even feel like I can express an opinion anymore.  People don't want to reason.  People don't want to care.  It's boring out there.  Just a Call of Duty here.  An Unemployment there.  Workin hard or hardly workin?  Things are rough for me.  But worse,  things are rough for everybody.  Everything is.... Business as usual I guess.  I wonder if I'm really the only one that thinks this? 

I don't watch T.V. much at all.  Like really.... next to nil.  But when I do see it these days... It's like... What THE FUNK!!!  It is literally a side show of paid actors and talking heads people. You have got to realize that there is real life out there.  Things won't change until we change.  Til we are allowed to prosper once again.  Til we are allowed the freedom to pursue our happiness.  To the 4 people reading this.  And whoever else.  Just change your minds.  That's all.  What do you want to leave for our future?  I suppose we'll leave some songs.  We still dream.  I still hope for the restoration of ideas. 

Never been more real for me,

John Quest



 

Pretend It's Not Real

It's been a minute since I've had a minute.  It's been a minute since my mind could slow down and actually think.  I'm just about sick of the shit that goes on around me everyday.  I'm just about sick of peoples opinions on things being so predictable.  I'm about sick of the hoops put in place for you and I to jump through on a daily.  I'm just about sick of our rights being infringed on.  I'm about sick of the fear that is constantly pumped through us on a daily. 

Bin Laden.  Laughable.  What in the Uncle Sam hell does he have to do with anything around this country really?  Other than causing severe panic and instability which is what he wanted in the first place.  Fucking 10 years later and they are still using this piece of shit as diversion.  I've got news for ya.  Our problems here start and stop in Washington D.C. with our Federal Government and the Banking Cartels that fund it. 

I have given up on politics before.  I never believed you could do anything about it.  I still don't really believe that you can.  Every person that stands up to try and do something is eventually demonized and destroyed.  Or just flat out killed.  I do know this though.  You can change.  You can.   

You might not be able to do anything about the Dept. of Education setting our curriculum for the last 40 years.  You might not be able to convince some college kid that even their school is probably a Federal set curriculum and they are not nearly as smart as they thought.  You won't be able to talk your video game addicts into understanding that most war type games are propaganda tools.  You won't be able to convince a television enthusiast that Jon Stewart is just as bad as Rush Limbaugh.  Or that Michael Moore is as much of a tool as Ann Coulter.  Or that Alex Jones plays the exact roll of Glen Beck.  Republicans are the same as Democrats. 

Do you see the theme here?  They are all the same.  Surprise.  One side appeases you.  The other appeases people like you with slightly different social views.  IT IS NOT REAL!!!!  If it's on T.V. at all...  It isn't real.  They wouldn't show you a damn thing that's actually true.  Because TRUTH would invoke change.  People know it when they hear it.  They hate it, but they know it.  Once the fires of knowledge start burning they are hard to stop.  So long as you stick with surface issues that divide and conquer our ideas we will have a hard time moving forward. 

Race, Religion, Sexual Preference, even Abortion... All minor in comparison to the real problems we as a people face.  Where's the common ground?  What about the fact that we are all being robbed through tax legislation?  What about the huge increase in food prices?  What about 5 perpetual wars that our friends and family have to fight and fund?  Where's the job growth?  What about being a service country instead of one that produces?  What about the Baby Boomers all retiring and people like me will never see our Social Security?  What about the awesome purchasing power of your dollar going down down down? 

Does anybody care about anything substantial?  Probably not.  Now... get your ass back to work wage slave.  The middle class is now the working poor and getting more poor everyday.  Most don't even realize the imminence of the crisis.  Or they do and they are afraid to say anything about it.  But... I'm probably just a kook.  "You're going to get used to wearing them chains after awhile Luke.  Don't you never stop listening to them clinking." 

I think I'm going to go to Florida and rap with Micah for awhile.

I still hold on to hope.

John Quest

P.S.   Drawn Out For You!!!  For the visually active.